Sleepwalking Christianity

I have written before about the peaks and valleys of my journey to and with Christ. I think another way to say the same thing is to sleepwalk through your faith. It has been forever since I have posted here. Lots has happened. My wife and I have had our first daughter which has been an unbelievable blessing. Since we had so much trouble, we feel like she is such a little miracle. But she has also been a part of why I feel like I am a sleepwalking Christian.

I still make it to church every week. My prayer life is down, but not out. But my devotional time has been almost none. I just get caught up in the worries of this world instead of spiritual things. With my wife off work, I am spending more time in the office. 8-6:30 every day. Then I spend my time at home with my little peanut and work around the house. Then I am physically and mentally spent. Rather than seeing time in the bible as relaxation and rejuvenation it has become a task or chore to fit in.

I always told myself that if God answered my prayer and let my wife and I raise a child of our own, It would renew my faith. I know I said it and prayed it, but after the fact I still find myself struggling to give God the glory and praise he deserves for this.

Basically eight years into my Christian life, it still hasn't got any easier. My mountaintop moments are in my past and I fight to find a strong burning desire to spread my faith or expand my knowledge.

Anyway, pray for me if you read this that my faith will be renewed and that I will spend more time with the Word and other ministries.