Judge My Faith? Do my doubts keep me from Heaven?

When I look back at my life, I have been a Christian for most of it..at least in part. Most of my life, my faith has ebbed and flowed. In 30 years, my faith that Jesus died for me and that there is one and only one God has ranged from complete and total belief to complete rejection of the concept.

So do I make your grade? If I died tomorrow, would you think I made it to Heaven?

You see, this last few months I have been doubting some. Reading my Bible less, spending less time in prayer, and serving less. But I still believe, still make it to church, and still ask the Lord for help getting back to my 10 out of 10 faith score.

But where is the Holy Spirit? Why is this so hard for me? Hours and hours, books and books, serving, prayer groups, and more. Pray for me that I will be stronger in the coming days and weeks. That my focus will be on the Lord and not on myself, my life, and just getting by.

Sincerely,

Won Christian

PS - I really am posting my study on the Books of Paul at some point. This is one of the reasons I need prayers.