Lost in the Wilderness!

Have you ever been lost in the wilderness? ..unable to see the light, doubting your very beliefs. This is the spot between your peaks, when your only ministry is dragging yourself to church once a week. One of my struggles in Christian Faith is that my strength of belief ebbs and flows more than it should. Not that I ever don't believe, but that my commitment to what I believe fades.

I believe Christians should read their Bible daily. . . yet I may go a week without sitting down with mine.

I believe we should participate in Church events. . . but often I am too busy to be bothered.

I believe that we should put Jesus 1st. . . but sometimes it seems he simply isn't on my mind.

I believe we should tithe 10% of our income. . . however some weeks the budget is just too tight.

These are just a few examples. It is during these times that I feel so guilty. The answer is your Christian Wilderness Survival Kit, the Bible. (Luke 15:1-10 NLT) It is always the Word that gets me to become focused on him again. I reluctantly pick it up before bed, read a few chapters then say my prayers. Next thing you know, I am back into a solid Faith routine.

What is so troubling to me is that I clearly enjoy the times when I feel right with God. Yet I keep finding myself falling short and feeling guilty. Is this the sinful nature of man? Or am I not as strong of a person as I thought I am?

This site is helping right now. Instead of simply reading my bible, I am searching out guidance. Studying a topic. In the verse from Luke above, Jesus clearly says that he seeks the lost. Is this why the pull on my heart is stronger when I am living poorly instead of living strong?

This week is Mission's week at church. Together with the site, I have been spending a lot of time with God and mindful of his will in my life. I am thankful that I am once again out of the wilderness and ask for the strength to stay focused on Jesus.

I mistakenly thought becoming a Christian would make life easier. Instead, I now second guess my daily routines and actions. My goal is to continue to seek, read and learn until my faith is stronger.

sincerely,

Won Christian